Crossing That Rainbow Bridge

I stood in the room and watched as Mrs Jansen realized that she had to let Moe go.  Her demeanor changed from distraught to calm as she stroked his head. The tears never stopped, but the reason behind them changed.  

She had come to realize the unconditional love between her and Moe allowed her to be at peace. His body was failing and she needed to let him go.  

More tests or treatments would not change the fact that his body was failing. He needed her help to cross the rainbow bridge. She lovingly gave me permission to help him as well.

I can’t tell you the number of times I have had the quality-of-life and end-of-life discussion with clients. It’s part of the job.  But how I have handled it has grown and evolved over the years. I am old enough to have witnessed changes in how we perceive pet ownership and the amazing growth in our medical knowledge and resources.  

The number of decisions that we are faced with when our pets are ill can be overwhelming:

– How much to spend?
– What lengths to go to?
– How many medications can we give?
– How many veterinary visits will they tolerate?
– What is best for my pet?

The question we all want an answer to is “What would my pet want me to do?”

As our society has become more removed from nature and busy with activities and technology, we have lost the most vital form of communication–that communication we have with our soul, our higher-self, our innate knowledge of what is best for us in the highest sense.  This knowledge resides in our body and is found in that sensation you feel in your body when you sit quietly and ask the question, is it time to let my loved one go. Your body knows the answer. The art is in listening to it.

We get so wrapped up in our human needs, desires and egos that we forget we are all part of a larger connected non physical realm that has the knowledge of the ages locked into our bodies. We have forgotten how to listen to it.

The reason I still go to work every day is because I believe I make a difference.  Not just with my medical knowledge or surgical skills. I make a difference because I believe in listening with my soul to my clients and patients.  I empower my clients to make the decision that is right for them. I encourage them to take the facts and options I give them and make an informed decision.  I am not alone. My colleagues around the world are amazing individuals who have the unique task of balancing this dance of the human <-> animal bond. I am so grateful to be part of this profession as we move forward into a new age of recognizing that the advanced medical capabilities can be balanced with our inner wisdom and that of our pets’.    

I believe we all have the ability to make the difficult decision to euthanize our pets when we tune into our higher self.  A judgement free environment knowing that your pet loves you no matter what decision you make is a powerful place to stand.  

A willingness to tune into your higher self allows access to wisdom not clouded by ego, judgement and fear.  It allows you to make decisions that are best for you and your fur-baby. Create your own no judgement zone, tap into that inner wisdom when faced with the difficult decisions of euthanasia and be at peace with the decision you make.  

I would love to hear your experiences with euthanasia and how you handle it as a veterinary professional or as a person.  If you would like to talk more about accessing your inner wisdom, please contact me by CLICKING HERE to set up a free, 1 hr personal call with me.

This is a topic near and dear to my heart and I am always willing to explore what it means to you.  

That time I stuck my foot in my mouth…

Today I am reposting a newsletter submission from a year ago because I was reminded of it as I saw this client again this week.  Please enjoy it and know that, even a year later, this was still a very important lesson for me.

There is a book, The Four Agreements, by Don Miguel Ruiz that lays out four agreements you make with yourself that can transform your life.  

One of the agreements is “Do not make assumptions.”

I had this tenet very clearly pointed out to me the other day in the exam room. I walked into the room to meet a new client. As I was entering the room, I commented on how much I loved their red sneakers. Then I looked at the chart and saw the name Britney. The person standing in front of me looked very masculine.  

That’s when I totally dug myself the deepest hole I may ever have been in! Not able to just close my mouth, I blathered on about how Britney is not usually a male name, blah blah blah. I am sure my tech was ready to stomp on my foot or slink under the table. Britney took it very well and said that she is frequently mistaken for a male. I continued to be confused and finally literally had to close my mouth and start the exam before saying anything more.  

As I was palpating the abdomen, which was very normal but I took extra time to do it, I replayed the conversation and realized that I had made an assumption based on how Britney looked that was completely wrong.  Lucky for me she was very nice about it. But as soon as my pulse slowed down, I apologized to her for making an assumption that I had no right to make. I told her I was sorry and how gracious she was in handling it.  

After I apologized I realized that I felt totally empowered! We went on to have a great discussion about her dog and we actually got along really well. The empowerment I felt by apologizing was amazing. I know, had I just ignored it, I would have been beating up on myself for days about how stupid I was and I would have feared meeting her again.

So my recommendation to you is two-fold:

  1. Do not make assumptions. Listen and ask questions to understand the other person’s point of view.  
  2. Sincerely apologize when you are wrong. It gives you back your power, and allows for a natural interaction, without weird vibes, to occur.

If you have experienced the power of apologizing, if anything you read resonates with you, or if you have any questions about these ideas please CLICK HERE to set up a free, 1 hr personal call with me.  

I’d love to hear from you!

That night I was exhausted yet wide awake at the same time…

Arggghhhhhh!  I laid awake the night after my first patient died after surgery.  I was exhausted, but unable to keep my eyes closed or my brain quiet.  I felt cold and sweaty at the same time. I laid on the couch watching inane late-night tv while I did a thorough job of beating up on myself:

Did I cause this death?  What sign did I miss that this was going to happen? Could I have done something better? If only I was a better doctor this wouldn’t have happened. I am such an incompetent doctor.  I obviously should never do surgery again. How could I do surgery ever again.

I eventually fell asleep only to wake up with the exact same thoughts pounding in my head as I headed into the clinic for another day.

GUILT.  The emotion that comes over us as we believe we caused someone harm.  

GUILT.  The emotion that arises when we compromise our values by acting, or not acting, in accordance with our beliefs.  

GUILT.  That horrible feeling we get when we believe we should have done more.  We should be able to work more hours, know everything about everything, and cure every patient we see.  Silly right? Of course, but we all say these things to ourselves!

This emotion, guilt, brought on by our thoughts, is a major reason we experience compassion fatigue and burnout.  We keep layering on the belief that we should know more and be able to do more, day after day, week after week, until we are depleted and not able to see how much good we do in a day and how needed we are.

I like the cognitive theory way of softening and negating this emotion of guilt.  By changing our thoughts about a situation we can soften the feeling of guilt and even avoid it all together.  

When you experience a situation that has you feeling guilty, notice the thoughts you are thinking.  What story are you telling yourself about the situation? Be on the lookout for thoughts that begin with “I should have” or ‘I could have” or those thoughts using words like “always” (such as “I always make mistakes”).  These are the kind of thoughts that lead to the emotion of guilt and keep us from being able to assess a situation honestly, learn from it, and move on.

I encourage you, when you are feeling guilty, to change the story you are telling yourself.  Phrases like “I did my best” and “My team and I did all we could to save her, it just was not to be” are powerful and true statements. Learn from all outcomes, successes as well as failures, and be willing to let yourself off the hook. Notice the thoughts associated with your emotions and create new thoughts to orient yourself in a better feeling direction.